I       look  around and what do you see   beautiful people who live on lies and thrieve on lies   what up with that   I sure dont know  but one thing I do know is that is not what I am all about   never was and never will be     I always say IF YOU DON'T WANT THE ANSWEAR THEN DON'T ASK THE QUESTION    RIGHT??????   if anyone asks me a question about anything   then for sure I am gonna answear it honestly even if it hurts someone I do not believe in telling a lie just to make others look good or because it may be something you want to hear   some people tell lies to hurt others   some tell lies to cover up their guilt    some tell lies to make themselves look good   but what ever I do not tell lies   cuz the end result is someone is surely gonna get hurt   and if by telling the truth ends up hurting a guilty party  then so be it   you make your bed you better be ready to lie in it.     some people tell lies to get credit for things they did not do  just to hurt people   how true is that statement !!  but truly lies do not get you anywhere  most people are not that dumb  they can usually figure things out  before too long  either cuz if they know the person that the lie is about then they know the difference   and if they know the liar   then you are not fooling anyone cause they know what  the liar is about  and if  they  don't  know either person or situation eventually they  will figure things out   one way or the other  the liar is not fooling anyone   not even themselves   sad part is they have to live with themselves    and that is why  no matter what the question I will tell it how it is   and yes mabey even add to the question if I am the one who is personally  hurt enough by the liar    I will mabey detail  the question mabey unnessary to do so but it's called venting   and I would rather vent a bit then to be know as a liar and someone that cannot be trusted as those type people  have an evil and selfish streak  in their personality that they feel the need to lie about or hurt others delibertly and maliciously  .....it makes me both angry and sad  to be a part of such behaviour and such lifestyle when you feel so letdown and dissapointed in  unnecessary actions cause by lies or mabey I should say justifyed by lies cause of their actions   so unexceptable in soicety and amongs the people who try to live a more compassionte lifestyle than to corrupt  life by deliberate  hurting and lying  becoming such undesireables  whom we have to accept  and put up with amongs us   especially when on the whole there is good and bad in everyone and its so much easier to chose the good side of yourself   instead of the selfish way which usually turns you into one of those know as a liar   and  you begin with accepting the blame and the truth about yourself and then lies will not be necessary    only other point I need to make is that lies go even further   and that is in jealously   when people seem to try to better themself or their lifestyle  why do others need to feel the need to tell even more lies by saying that others are the reason they are able to improve their lifestyle and  without  taking from others   those people would not be able to  get what they get or do what they do   by themselves    Is it because  they  these vicious  and mean  individuals can't see beyond doing for yourself  without others doing it for you    so again the lies just go on and on   Jealousy is a very  sick  problem amongst society but that is another topic  goodday maggie    October 27th  2007

hi    it is 3.39   am    and try as I may I cannot sleep   I wish I was not so deep   if I was I could sleep   I am restless when people are mean and say and do things when things do not please them   I would not mind if the things they said were abot the issue and if were even half truth  but to just babble on with all deliberate lies  makes me wonder what makes them be able to look at themselves in the mirror   and when I say something nice about another person connected to them   why they have to go to that person and tell a bunch of lies that I supposedly have said   I could say more and could defend my self but I am tired of doing that as it only adds to the problem   and to go ahead and  tell them more of what was said by their own siblings would only do more damage but believe me I know stuff that I should never have been told but  I will not hurt the person who it was said about  and it was told to me in confidence   and that is where it will stay   I sometimes wish I could be that terrible person  whom  I was told I was just recently   and  could retaliate and tell  the things I know  that the same person who said I was sick  took the liberty to tell me of her own  sister and aunts but  none the less   I will keep my moto that the less said best   no sense in hurting people just to get back  because i have been hurt    I am better than that   I have said all I am gonna say to some individuals an they know themselves and as I already told them   live with your selves   I bet being the kind of person they are that they are not up at this hour  because they are bothered by the hurt they have caused    and  that is not all of them as I do have love for  a few   but I am not allowed to say that because  that person will get hurt too  with a bunch of lies told them to turn them off on me and that is ok too   because  they really know how some people react when trying to defend their actions  the person I am referring to is very insecure   and selfish   an d this is usually the way she handles things when  she does not like what others say about her   and anyone who knows her don't have to be told that   how mean and uncaring she can be when trying to defend her terrible actions   and isnt it funny that for some reason her only avenue is doing the court think   after she has created the damage   well enough about this bash just needed to vent without  having an unwanted answear full of  resentment and lies   and hurtful slurs  that are mostly highly exagerated to justify the means    No wonder I would like to write a book my life   and how I feel things could be if people where more kind   and do not get me wrong there are a lot of good people in this world  but the one out of a thousand that is a damaging type  can  ruin a whole barrell of others   it's really a shame   isn't it   but that is why they say that hell is here on earth  God tests us in so many ways   and I believe it's because he want 's to see how we are gonna handle his tests   and then he will be the judge come  judgment day    nothing any of us can say or do will make a difference then   cause  it's his call and lets hope the score  will be enough for each of us to pass the test I know he does not expect us to be perfect   but I am sure that there is a certain point system that he goes by to determine how well we did   and  for some of us who believe he is really out there  mabey we will remember that and do our best to make sure we past that test and for those who don't believe well i sure feel sorry for them and hope they start to believe and begin to try and mend their selfish ways cause believe me we all will have to answear   and no amount of defense or slander  or lies or opinions are gonna help then   so we all better learn    THE LESS SAID BEST   enough for one nite it is four am   I need to try and sleep before my time call comes in at  5 am    and yes I will slip and yes I will vent   cause I am angry  but only about the issue not about  trying to hurt people with  opinions that are not mine to give    sorry to feel this way    sorry to not be able to turn other cheek and say its ok   you can do what you want to me and I will still say your a good person   but remember I will only talk about the issue not about things that are none of my business   goodnight maggie   that's enough for now

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